the end

yes, it is the end. and it is the real end.

little A had stopped feeding about almost two months ago, but before i could update it, he had a relapse. 3 weeks after i thought that that was the end. but after that one incident of 'i want nenen at the breast' never again. i guess it's because there was simply nothing there, and he got tired of suckling and suckling and get nothing. plus, it's not exactly lush over there kan.

how come i knew it's really THE END? last night we were playing rough-n-tumble and he said he wanted to "change sides". when i really put him at the breast, he was struggling to get away. like, yuck!!! he actually said yuck!!?? nilah yang kau hyperventilate at dulu tau! but no hard feelings cause i was also emotionally done with feeding him.

i weaned him naturally. i didn't put any coffee grinds or asam jawa at my boobs. it seemed inhumane plus aku geli. so when i decided that i wanted off, i just stopped offering him. at first i only gave when he asked. then after a while, when he asked, i gave him the option of bottle and more and more, he preferred bottle, or 'susu' as he called it. then whenever he chose breast, i would persuade him to take bottle. on and on until he only wanted breast at night. and even so i discouraged. and now takde.

takde in all sense of the word ok. at my heyday i was straining a D cup. but after 2 years+ of breastfeeding, i can barely fill up a B cup. but seriously!!! but i have no regrets. it really is, without a doubt, something all mummies should do for as long as they can.